I've thought sbout it. I've thought a lot.

Yes. I did. And you know what's my conclusion? My life is not worth a damn without you.

I didn't want it to be like this. I had wanted to be able to last forever with you. Remember my promise? Our anniversary, your birthday, my birthday... and I wanted to put a ring on your left ring finger. You told me you would let me if I wanted. And I wanted to. I wanted to be with you until the end of time. I wanted to hold you forever, and I want to live wih you.

I'm sorry for whatever happened. I really wished it would not be like this. I wished you would forgive me. And I think that if uue really love me so much that you want to make me happy, even if it means hurting yourself, uue will not leave me. For the sake of my sanity, and my life.

I just want to say I'm sorry.

And I love you.